Am I The Only One?

Am I the only one? Has anyone else ever felt fear? 
Not just any fear, but a seemingly never ending fear. 
The kind of fear that, in the moment, feels like fear is the only thing you'll ever know.

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You thought you could outrun it, but you were wrong every time. It's now what controls you. 
You almost respect it. You listen to it and obey it. It's your gauge that tells you what's impossible. 
It holds you so tightly you can't even scream for help anymore.

It's like a bungee cord how it pulls you back and slaps you in the face every time you reach out for one of your dreams. 
It says: Why did you even try? I've told you you're a loser. 
It tells you: Hope’s a fake, but assures you that pain is real.

It has to have your attention; without your attention it will die. 
That's why it's so demanding and why it screams so loudly. 
It's behind your insecurity, it's the thing that asks you every night: Why God would love you? 
It's the thing that tells you over and over again what you did wrong and why you can never change.

It tells you you'll trip if you take that first step. 
I took that first step, I didn't trip, it was all a lie. 
I stopped giving fear my attention. It has now died.  
Am I the only one?